You think it’s so easy to change yourself. You think it’s so easy, but it’s not. True, things don’t stay the same forever: couches
are replaced, boys leave, you discover a song, your body becomes forever scarred. And with each of these moments you change and change again, your true self spinning, shifting positions—but always at last it returns to you, like a dancer on the floor. Because throughout it all, you are still, always, you:
beautiful and bruised, known and unknowable. And isn’t that—just you—enough?
two thumbs up for this.
this work by Leila Sales is an inspiration. it's all about a suicidal teenage story who's feeling that she's just a nobody but eventually fought her way to leave the dark world she's been through her music. I can't really relate to Elise Dembowski because I've never been bullied ever. But her story affected me so much. my eyes were opened to the very apparent issues our youth is and will be facing. and I feel sad. very sad because bullying is happening. Elise felt so small coz no one sees her. no one is friends with her. she tried everything. she tried to change herself, changed her clothes, study the latest in almost everything related to teenagers, tried listening to the music out of her type just to be updated just like a normal teenager. but despite her efforts, she's still left out. and she felt so alone that there came a point that she planned to die by cutting her wrist. and even if i didn't experience bullying, i understand how she feels and it makes me really sad. that's why when she found her safe haven, the underground club where she found the thing she likes doing the most, i was relieved. she made her way out through her music. and she decided that she worthy of being here. and look at where she is now, she's the Glendale's hottest DJ Elise Dembowski.
and i wish that every teenager who's been bullied find an inspiration from this book. that even when everybody makes you feel so small and continuously bringing you down, may they find that confidence in themselves that nobody can define who you are and what you can do. coz in the end, it is still them that make their own fate.